hMm..

erm, sry for for the late update again >< haha, quite lazy then everytime no update xD basically since the spore government I think they also nv bother us about the bond thing (my fren's sis work in msia for 3 yrs they also nv go find her) and my dad ask me to take insurance license 1st, so now currently im preparing for the insurance exam on this coming 3rd of december, the book might seem thick, but i think if understand shld be no prob ba..but too long no study a bit rusty in absorbing liao =X todae woke up so suay, eyes got infected now one big one small o.O hard to open meh, cos so sore till is hard to open. Think got infected due to contact lens ba, that day wear too long le then itchy nx day kena liao T_T aiks.. then my dad went into hospital yesterday.. he complained abt stomach pain and feeling very cold, my mum was so kanchiong cos this has nv happen b4, then wan bring my dad to hospital then he keep say don wan. In the end drag him there haha. Think by tml shld be discharge le ba.. then another suay thing.. my new pc got stuck by lightning ZZZZZZ. Think my network card tio.. cant online =( bad day zzz .Hope things get better for me this coming few months.. =D (To yenyen, u are pig wakaka)

Sowee!

Haha, sry guys so long nv update my blog =X Cos lazy to update then was busy finding jobs outside and back home playing game xD But sad thing till now still cant manage to get myself a job. Why? Reason 1: Trying to find service based job with promotion opportunities but my diploma is in Multimedia. Regreted taking this course, cos basically wad i have learn is wad pple learnt in dip. in IT. And take a look at straits times newspaper under IT section they are either looking for 3 yrs exp. pple or diploma in IT. If not, diploma in Graphic Design. Sad case. Reason 2: "Hi i am able to apply for PR once i found a job in sing" "Sorry. We only want pple who already got PR ALREADY,Bye" Hangs up. Reason 3: "U have the potential to work in our company, but we need to settle some procedures b4 finalizing anything.We willc all u once u are enlisted" I waited. Waited.Waited. None call. Reason 4: Im competing with pple who have diploma in service industry which makes it more hard to find myself a position >,<. Dunno how now also, shld i just work as waiter or in starbucks 1st or wad. Dilemna. Tml goin spore for job hunt again. Hope can find some decent jobs. If not pple think i at home slacking not finding any jobs then not gd liao =P haiz. May god bless me.

Better luck nx time

man.. i got "thrashed" from the interview todae. Actually i thought wont be so difficult ba.. then when reach there i was stunt! So many guys! all look so mature and smart. I saw them stoned also. Then we were divided into groups of 10, then go in for 1st round of interview. Each of us will need to gif a speech about ourselves and why do we want to join SIA. Then the 1st guy stood up then hes from Zouk working as bartender. His english was so damn fluent till i so stress man. Then i tot ok, this is juz one of the better ones. Then 1 by 1 all stood up no mistake in their speech. by the time it was my turn, wadever i wanted to say had already been said by them and i was already nervous till i got tongue tied. 1st time tongued tied man. Then in the end they choose 4 out of 10 in every grp to get into 2nd round which was 1 v 1 interview. Sadly, i was one of the six who got disqualified. It was so fast till i got no time to react too. So sian. Bit sad cos i nv really perform to my normal standard during speech in my poly. Haha, but gd experince la~ at least noe wad to do nx time. I think im the youngest there cos most of them ranged from 24-28 yrs old. All of them are so expreriened in their presentation and speech. I think i muz go learn more abt speech and eng too >< Haha..got to find some other jobs for now. tsk tsk.

S.I.A interview

Few more hours before i go for the air steward interview..zz hope can get in man. Bit nervous cos scare cant ans to the interviewer's question *scared* anyway, this is one chance to really find something to do (those IT companies nv bother about my resume) hope can get in earn enuff $$ and fly ard the world while im still young~! haha,amitabha. Siowbih fetch me there later, save me trips and time finding the place. Got to slp le, if not tml cant crap xD will share wif u guys the results then.Gd luck to me ^^;

special day..

has been a yr.. fond memories.. haha.Cheers.

Zetai Superstar

Discovered that JingYing got into top 24 for Chn U's Zetai Superstar on Tv. Tough man, respect her. But heard from frens said that she out le after that, dunno real or not also.Anyway lets wish her the best in wadever she do!Back to me..jobs are hard to find..jobs jobs jobs.. i will hunt u down sooner or later xD

o..

I was walking somewhere within some shopping centre when i saw her once again. Has been quite a time since i last saw her. Become prettier huh i suppose. I say hi to her and she correponded. She was alone at that time and wt thought might be able to do some shopping together. We walked and walked, i juz burt out "how are you?" lol, of course she said "im fine". We went seeing clothings and she was really entu in this kind of things -.- then saw 2 of her frens and i think she gonna had something to do wif them later. But then dunno why they saw us then they say go arcade left 2 of us alone. Haha. But after awhile she turned, told me she got to catch up wif her frens and i.. woke up. - I was dreaming. Hahaahaha. Stupid dream.

21

Guess wad? Im 21 already?! O my.. this digit to me dunno whether is good or bad. Cos it signifys a new phase of my life (independent) but also signifies Im no more kid anymore. Cant play as much like last time le haha. Miss the days during sec sch days.. well anyway, lets juz hope for the better! Quite happy todae becos I got my bunch of good frens celebrating my 21st Birthday together with me! Haha. We went steamboat across carrefour there, got a total of 12 pple. haha, they bought me a classic adidas watch man, so nice and maN~ wuhahah. Szejie and others also bought cake and Seed Shirt for me as present, really thx them a lot ^^ Also thx to HaNnYee With her extraordinary Bday card haha. Realli enjoyed myself. So fast over liao, muz find job le =X Hope things get on better for me. Wish everyone stay happy always and may everythin go smoothly for u all!

Star Seach canceled

Newspaper reported that Spore will postponed the Star search for this year. Reason? Becos did u guys ever see the champion of previous yr's star search still in action? Popular artist in mediacorp nowadays many of them get into mediacorp through other tunnels and their popularity had already outburst those who took part in star search. The remaining artists from star search who last till now did not get champion yet they still can stay in mediacorp till now. Also, nowadays singing is a more popular career because as more and more sporeans like Stephanie managed grab the hearts of pple from south east asia and now there are the "Jue Dui Superstar" Competition holding right now, is not surprising that star search is being postponed. But, there goes my opportuny T_T stupid. Aiks. Guess got to look for a decent job le.

Thank you mum for everything

Happy mother's day!! Haha, though is already over, somehow this yr is quite different to me, cos dunno why todae lying on bed then suddenly thought wad if mum juz leave us lidat one day? *touched wood* but we nv realli noe when that day will come. I thought and thought, though i noe i have always made her worry about me for coming home late and sometimes get angry over thr slightest things; but the thought of her leaving me alone one day somehow really stucked my head hard. I was like noe i will cry that kind of feeling, but in front of her i like don care about her one,cos i think i feel awkward or shy to do it ba. But todae i did talk more than before to her and make her laugh lo, at least shes happy =) We celebrate mother's day at hawker centre, though quite cozy and hot but who cares? Most important is one whole family sitting down and enjoying. Time really flies now and next week i will be officially looking for job le ba.. time to make a living for myself instead of relying on my parents >< Man.. really lots to say to my mum say how much i cherish her in our family. She's juz like one of us been though her teenage age and now she can sacrifice everything for us. Im so guilty. Anyway, these few days have been out with yeanhui wenjuin sheeban and frens for tea session then chat and chat. Haha, in the end chat till nth more to chat end up in lanshop again haha. Well im now sick of it too and this further motivates me to really look for a job real sOOon! BaHh.. but after my Bday ^^ To end this blog, i will like to say, "MeEee! I love you for wad u did to me and i really appreciate it though i nv say. Thank you for being my mum. Ur da best!

arr..

read the newspaper, then saw one article about YeJunChen, the artist last time work in Mediacorp one. Now thne noe why he nv work there le cos he said spore programme most of them are pre-recorded then he don't like cos he said he want to challenge his live hosting skills. Also becos they can't get to an agreement over their contract so he decided to go back to M'sia's showbiz where he found his point. But during this period he said he went to Taiwan to look for opportunities by making appointment with respective "managers" with his resume but no one was interested in him. I was like "woah".. he also no one interested. In the end his staying pass was almost expired and his $10000 was also almost depleted so went back to M'sia liao. But he doin quite well in M'sia ba, at least he gets wad he wanted.

hmm..

thinking of what to get for mother's day, actually nv have the habit of giving anything to my mum but dunno why lately feel that sometimes being a mum very kelian cos she devoted all her time to us >< For people who stay at home and got nothing to do, find something do, spent ur time wisely ^^ Chn U 5 pm got the "Yu Le Bai Fen Bai" hosted by XiaoZhu,Big S and small S. Is an interesting variety show relating to showbiz news, can consider watching it if you are bored. Man im poor, someone pls find job lobangs for me so i can survive =S

Zz..

Bored. Super Bored Day. And, Time flies.

Happy Labour Day for all ^^

song, juz finish bathing. Back from lanshop, fun man juz now, play warcraft Dota! Very fun cos frens all play together, then need teamwork if not confirm lose one. Haha, quite exciting man XD Now hair wet, waiting for hair dry, so sian now, nth to do le. Haha, juz now Yaying msg me wad the arrows are used for in maple i was like stone a while sial, cos Yaying in maple? Impossible! Haha, but good la, another fren to add in maple and play together le ^^ Aiks.. but now don have the mood to bia already, nowadays play back gunbound and warcraft, cos maple reset everything muz train from lv 0. Money also! Omg, i feel so poor inside, so discouraging ><>< now dunno can go or not, maybe try ask again hehe. Aiks.. nth much to type, go msn chat le.

Tears

Thinking of putting a song onto my blog and wanted to upload "Tears" by X Japan. However i think i misplaced my cd then i went searching all over the place then finally found the cd. Haha, i tot i lost it cos i really love the songs man. Then played the cd before i slept cos my brother wasnt at home! haha, is my world! As i lay down and review the songs one by one, when I listen to the live version of tears, i dunno why i shed a tear man. A tear! lolx, only one drip somemore. Felt quite sad ba cos this song is really sad and triggers memories =/ Anyway, i fell asleep real soon and tada here i am writing the 2nd blog. Uploading the song now, guess will be long cos im using 56k -_- Anyway guess todae i am stuck at home once again doing the same things. Tml cna go out wif my fren! haha, to where? I guess lanshop ba, play games ^^

Well..

Don't intend to create a blog actually, as i already have other blogs from other websites. But i guess the design and layout here is more convenient and easy ba. So here i am blogging ^^ As usual, i am at home doin nothing much once again. Playing gunbound, maple,chat,blog. So bored. Graduated from poly, while most of the graduates seem busying looking around for jobs, I am practically doin nothing. Why? Because I have a dream. To most of u all it might seem to be a dream that is very hard to realise, but besides this i see no interest in other jobs. To be an actor/singer/DJ. Entertainer. Actually i quite regreted getting into the course in poly which is multimedia computing cause i found out i don really learn much from there and thats not my real interest. Have thought of picking up mass communication as i yearned to be a DJ, however cant get in as my english got a C6. Morever i am more confortable to pick up chinese mass comm compared to english as well.. u noe, my chinese rocks =X I noe how to entertain people and i really did thought that i can actually get into showbiz. The thing now is that i need opportunites. Hmm.. this year i think there's a star search competition held and i think i am gonna join it. But don really dare to tell people what i plan to do cos im scared they think i am juz day dreaming. So well.. here's another way to express my thoughts here. As i need to serve bond for Singapore after i graduate, if i did not met it into the competition, i guess all i can do is to serve the bond and go take up mass comm dip/degree over again. hope it is nv late to learn anything again ><

Talking about relationships.. maybe i don really noe how to handle them ba.. so results in breaking off wif my stead. I think both of us are at fault, and I know i break because staying together wont get us to anywhere.. as there's lack of trust and as we held different thinkings. Maybe she's right.. i'm a dull and boring person,cos i don really know what to do in a relationship =/ well.. what i can do now is let things go naturally ba..